To be honest, I signed up for the Rekindling Your Spirit conference out of complete desperation. The last 2 years of my life had been riddled with one attack after another on my body, my mind and my spirit. I felt as though I was living with a dark cloud hanging over me; draped in depression and anxiety, I couldn’t see clearly enough to back track to where this vicious cycle began. After all, I WAS saved, and I desired more than anything to live my life for Christ. How could this happen to me? How could a Christian like me find himself in this awful place…How? Why? And when would God rescue me from this pit? I was desperate to live without anxiety, depression and medication. I KNEW in my heart that living this way could not be God’s best for me; it seemed I was in some sort of trap and I couldn’t set myself free.
Through a set of “circumstances”, I “stumbled across” the Rekindling Your Spirit web-site and discovered that there was a conference scheduled in one week. I had nothing to lose, and felt compelled to attend so I registered. Within minutes of the conference starting, I knew I was in the right place. In my minds eye I began to see pieces of a big puzzle come together, one by one. That puzzle was my life. The following 2 1/2 days were like an “exploration”; making one discovery after another about who I was and how I became that person. God broke me in a way I had never been broken; repentance overwhelmed me…forgiveness and the love of God flooded every cell of my being, and I knew before I left that I would never be the same. It’s funny; I didn’t really have a chance to deal with or even pray about my anxiety and depression that weekend. There was no need, God revealed Himself to me in a new and powerful way and with that came assurance that everything else would take care of itself. When I shut my mouth and opened my heart, the Holy Spirit came and ministered to me and revealed the Father to me, just like the Bible promises. In the days that followed the conference, I heard the Lord speak to my heart over and over these words; “I am reestablishing my work in you”. I finally looked up the word “reestablish” in the dictionary and this is what I read: “bring back into original existence, use, function, or position; “restore law and order”; “reestablish peace in the region”; “restore the emperor to the throne”. WOW! Every segment of this definition applied to what God was doing in my heart and life! I am so thankful for the “divine appointment” that God had for me that weekend. Paul and Janelle and the entire “team” were wonderful, and most of all…God showed Himself faithful and absolutely awesome! I truly will never be the same!
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